As an author, I want to share my thoughts and experiences with my readers. The following post is from June of this year when I was getting closer to the release of Beacon of Sound. I dealt with some real fear and anxiety. Now it is August, I am revisiting this post because it reminds me to keep walking even when I am terrified of the path I have chosen, Maybe my journey will inspire others to walk towards their passions. Enjoy the read and stay naughty because you are good at it .
June 18, 2014
It seems that the closer my publication date gets, the more worried I become. Unfortunately my friends have gushed over my work which makes me worried that I have taken on too much. Will people get it? Will they take the escape I am offering and understand that it is just a temporary out? It’s not like I want to take their reality away, I just want to numb them a little. How good is this novel? Do I dare expect more from my skills? Should I live within and accept my limitations? As a joke I submitted my work to a publisher. It was a joke because I know what I want to do and no publisher will be on board with my ideas. I am tired of forcing myself to write because fear makes me lazy. Beacon of Sound is my baby and I am not sure I want another editor to lay it bare and attempt to draw blood from it. I am so freaked out by the future or truth that I have not even worked on my current project. I have a fear of walking to the end and finding the road closed off. I know this will all pass but, I might as well bare my soul. My craft will soon be out there for the world to judge. Who knows? The world and the journey may just surprise me…